Goodnight, my dear best friend. Regret nothing when I am gone in the morning when you wake up, 'cus everyone's gotta leave someday, somehow.

So, i'm just here to talk about how people come and go. Y'know when someone just leaves in a blink of an eye, and never comes back? I just felt that, couple'o days ago. It hurts doesnt it? just left to wander and think about what's going on. And you start to take trips down memory lane, where you just so happen to just walk in the park where you and that particular person who left, used to walk together to somewhere. And you start to feel lost, and start thinking about all those memories, and there, infront of the crowds of people in the park, you just feel like breaking down, you seem like your head's in a mess, and you don't know what to do. You think about them so often, till you get lost in your own thoughts

Friend: 'Hey, sup bro?'

You: 'oh um..hey..yea?'

Friend: 'You alright man? you dont seem so good'

You: 'yea im fine, wait..what?'

And then you just feel so bipolar, you know, you're mixing around happily with your friends, till the thought of that person strikes back into your memory and head again, and your mood just goes down all the way to the centre of the earth. That's just what happened. I fell in love with my best friend, and it came all the way to this stage, where it was torn to bits, and pieces. Y'know, if we were to ever know each other again, let's call that fate. People who leave dont return to you so easily, so if they do, i hope they do, i guess we have to improve on what mistakes have been committed before.

Right now, im a bipolar mess. One minute happy, the other, i just feel so fucked up and lost for words. i dont know man.. People leave, and i guess that, people are leaving me slowly, one by one. it's just, when?

Peace out.

So for the past few days, i've just been trying to forget you and us, but apparently, im not doing very good at it.

Random times in the evening and at night, you've been appearing in my mind, your smile, your laugh, your hugs, just, the times we spent together. I miss all of that, but i know i'll never get any of it back. I might visit memory once in awhile, but i don't wanna live there. Some of the words you said to me, the things we did, like watch the stars in the night sky, just appeared in my mind. Sigh, happiness only lasts awhile. I need to appreciate everything while i still have them, and so should everyone of you reading this.
It's sad how i still keep that post-it you gave me, and all those small things we kept and exchanged with each other. Right now, i just hope you're strong and going, and i guess i should pick myself up slowly but steadily too. Everyone leaves, its just when, how, and why. Sometimes people just leave unexpectedly, they don't leave you a note, or anything to tell you, till you realise like, 'hey, she/he's gone, what the fuck bro what do i do?', and that's just too late when you start to think back and miss all that stuff. This post is probably rubbish but, yea, i hope you're reading this, or that you'll read it. I'm sorry.